I am frustrated
I moved from liquids to mushy/soft foods this week. Today is Day 6. Keeping in mind, that I can only eat about 1 cup of food per meal, so my calorie intake is extremely difficult to get above 1100-1200 each day. So, in my old world I am barely even eating. In my new world, this is going to be about the daily average, give or take a day when maybe something special is happening that involves food.
I have also incorporated moderate cardio back into my regiman, combined with a very low calorie diet.
Sat & Sun & Mon: walked 2 miles fast pace, calories net below 1000.
Tues: Day1 of C25K (jog, walk 30 min combo), calories net below 1000.
Wed: 30 min spin class, calories net below 900
Thur: Repeated Day1 of C25K, calories net below 1000
Today: 4:30 am Repeated Day1 of C25K
I am still the same weight I was last Saturday, and according to my scale have actually gained .5 lbs....!
For the life of me, I just do not understand this happening to my body. Who lowers their calorie intake to this degree, exercises 30+ min every single day and maintains weight. I promise you, I have not cheated! Nothing, absolutely nothing has gone in my mouth that was not documented in MFP. There has been NO, even healthy snacks, between my 3 meals and 1 Protien drink.
Apparently, that would be me!
For a normal person, I would say dont freak out. I want to be able to not freak out. I need to not freak out. But,
This stand still on the scale scares the hell out of me!
What drove me to this surgery, was my 4 year non-stop dedication to my bootcamp, cardio driven calorie burning spin classes - none of which I ever missed. Every single week I was there, I never just "came home" instead of going, or "slept in" instead of going.
My weight NEVER moved. I weighed the same weight between 8-10 lbs for FOUR YEARS. Since June of 2008, I have been UNABLE to lose or maintain any significant weight loss. No matter how much I worked out, or what type of workout I did, NOTHING.
So, after 4 years, you know .... it is the FOOD. I simply was not eating what I should, I was not dieting. What I was doing, was working out to cover my appetite and shitty eating choices.
I am desperate! please dont let me be in the statistics of people who get a Lap Band that fail, that it does not work for. I will never recover from a failed attempt at this!
God, I'm praying and pleading and begging for some lenience with me. Please let my body respond!
The two good things I have to report is that I am not hungry and have no food cravings. Which is why I am able to be satisifed with my diet situation.
And, I guess because I went into this surgery in top physical condition, I am coming out well. My body is ready to go, its been 16 days, but I feel great! The mild cardio I did this week has not phased me, barely breaking a sweat. I do feel I could push for more, but I am not at my doctor's advice.
Am I destined for Phat Camp for the rest of my life?