Why knowing that I have my first weigh-in tomorrow morning on 8/1 with Mark my PT after 7 weeks...would I do this to myself today?
I truly believe these are the signs and behaviors we must not ignore but try and figure them out. Right now I'm admitting I did this, but still do not know why?
Last night instead of having my 300 calorie meal I had planned, I decided to eat what Buns' was eating but lighten it up. That was 1/3 C. Sloppy Joe Mix on top of 1/2 White Bun with 17 (portion) of cool ranch doritos.
First off do I really need to be eating this meal when I am trying to loose weight? Second did I need the cool ranch doritos? NO and NO!
But I did it anyway.
The very first bite of sloppy joe went down great, then I ate a dorito following and immediatley I got that feeling. You know the one we went thru the surgery hell to feel RESTRICTION!!!!!
Nope I continued to eat and cleared my plate. See I'll show my Band who's boss I'll eat what I want to eat.
HELL TO THE FURREY NO!!!!!!!!!!!! The Band Wins......
I had the worst throwing up episode ever! It lasted a good 10 minutes and I swear at one point I saw blood. My eyes are blood shot today and I have broken blood vessels around my mouth and nose from straining to puke.
I needed to loose 1.2 lbs to reach my soft goal I set with Mark on June 12th. So what I was 1.2 lbs off .... and this is what I do to myself? Not Normal!!!!
How about the 12.5 lbs I lost and the clothes that are falling off me and the people at work are noticing daily how good I look.
Apparently I cannot focus on any of that when faced with choosing between ME and Food.
I got no humor today, no pictures today for my post. This is just me admitting I got some issues.
K... :( bye.