Sunday, October 21, 2012


I have not blogged in 10 days becuase I'm living in DENIAL.   If I dont talk about it, or deal with it, or write it, maybe it will go away.

Well, here it goes:      I've managed to over work my right knee and I am paying the ultimate price.  I've been benched, just like NY's Derek Jeter!

I was on crutches 2 out of the past 10 days, in/our of Urgent Care and on some fabulous pain and anti-inflamatory drugs.   I'm off the crutches, but now have a "limp" and my lap-band surgeon said no more drugs!   I'm still not understanding what the big deal is with the ibruprofin, aleve, etc...  I need to know if you all follow this rule?   He says Tylenol only, but if you have been to the stores lately??? No Tylenol to buy.    So what is a Girl to do?

I have only had 1 workout in the past 10 days, so I feel like a loaf of wonder bread.   I'm heading to spin this morning to see if it's even remotely possible this girl can muster up a sweat!

My lapband surgeon DENIED me a fill when I desperately needed it, because I had been on a high dosage of ibruprofin for 7 days and then I admitted to being addicted to Aleve during our consult.   He said the fill would not be a good idea as my stomach was being aggravated by these meds. 

So, the scale is a BITCH!     I've lost 4.25 lbs in 5 weeks.    I'm still eating the same shit, but smaller portions!    Even with the workouts being ultra intense, I'm still not loosing as fast as I could if I would just eat healthy. 

I dont know why, but I just dont like healthy food.    I'm struggling to choose the right foods and its such a cop-out.      I have a top rated medial weight loss Surgeon bought and paid for 12 months, his Nutritionist and then an awesome Personal Trainer who I love to death and wants nothing more for me than success!   I put all this in place to help me loose weight this year, my support systems are there, so why am I absent?   

Is food really that over powering that I would walk out of this after a 1 year commitment and do only half ass?   

Wake the FUCK up Michelle and get your head out of your ASS.
I dont want to beat up on myself too bad in this post, because I have not given up and I still want this so much.   I'm just putting it out there once again, that regardless of the surgery it still takes dedication, time, effort and the ultimate sacrifice:     DENIAL of Food!  



  1. I think the headwork is the hardest part of all this.... I would say I eat good about 75% of the time. Which sucks... I can usually do REALLY good all day...then eat a candy bar. LIke WTF?!?! Why not just say no? Why not just leave it be? OH well, these are things that I dont' think will ever go away. But We will learn how to deal with it.

  2. I specifically asked my doctor about NSAID pain relievers, and he said there's no issue with them. It's so frustrating that doctors can't just be consistent!

  3. head this is tough..I have good times where it all seems easy and other times it is more difficult. I have determined that when I am emotional and stressed it sometimes is harder for me to follow healthy eating..same if I don't set myself up with nummy snacks on hand. I really look to find healthy snacks I like to eat and make sure they are on hand..maybe you need to keep looking until you find them? I always check out eggface's blog for fun recipes and she can seem to find them. Good will get back there if you want!

  4. Sorry you are having a rough time right now. concentrate on getting that knee healed!! I stayed off mine for 2 weeks and it took me awhile to get back on track... but you will. Hang in there.

  5. I know all doctors are different but I would follow his instructions.

    About the food, I guess it's safe to say, we've been there, are there, don't want to go back there! lol

    Just try to remember that yes we get disappointed in ourselves but it's a good thing to treat ourselves good when we aren't being really good. :)

    And water, vitamins,(especially vit c) protein, are good things to help get things started again.


  6. If only there were a "head" band that was just as effective as the belly band....until there is...keep up the good work!! Just blogging about it is a step in the right direction!

  7. You can do it girly! You've lost 40 lbs so far and that is nothing to laugh at!