I have not blogged in 10 days becuase I'm living in DENIAL. If I dont talk about it, or deal with it, or write it, maybe it will go away.
Well, here it goes: I've managed to over work my right knee and I am paying the ultimate price. I've been benched, just like NY's Derek Jeter!
I was on crutches 2 out of the past 10 days, in/our of Urgent Care and on some fabulous pain and anti-inflamatory drugs. I'm off the crutches, but now have a "limp" and my lap-band surgeon said no more drugs! I'm still not understanding what the big deal is with the ibruprofin, aleve, etc... I need to know if you all follow this rule? He says Tylenol only, but if you have been to the stores lately??? No Tylenol to buy. So what is a Girl to do?
I have only had 1 workout in the past 10 days, so I feel like a loaf of wonder bread. I'm heading to spin this morning to see if it's even remotely possible this girl can muster up a sweat!
My lapband surgeon DENIED me a fill when I desperately needed it, because I had been on a high dosage of ibruprofin for 7 days and then I admitted to being addicted to Aleve during our consult. He said the fill would not be a good idea as my stomach was being aggravated by these meds.
So, the scale is a BITCH! I've lost 4.25 lbs in 5 weeks. I'm still eating the same shit, but smaller portions! Even with the workouts being ultra intense, I'm still not loosing as fast as I could if I would just eat healthy.
I dont know why, but I just dont like healthy food. I'm struggling to choose the right foods and its such a cop-out. I have a top rated medial weight loss Surgeon bought and paid for 12 months, his Nutritionist and then an awesome Personal Trainer who I love to death and wants nothing more for me than success! I put all this in place to help me loose weight this year, my support systems are there, so why am I absent?
Is food really that over powering that I would walk out of this after a 1 year commitment and do only half ass?
Wake the FUCK up Michelle and get your head out of your ASS.
I dont want to beat up on myself too bad in this post, because I have not given up and I still want this so much. I'm just putting it out there once again, that regardless of the surgery it still takes dedication, time, effort and the ultimate sacrifice: DENIAL of Food!