DENIAL, ME CAN'T BE!

I have not blogged in 10 days becuase I'm living in DENIAL.   If I dont talk about it, or deal with it, or write it, maybe it will go away.

Well, here it goes:      I've managed to over work my right knee and I am paying the ultimate price.  I've been benched, just like NY's Derek Jeter!

I was on crutches 2 out of the past 10 days, in/our of Urgent Care and on some fabulous pain and anti-inflamatory drugs.   I'm off the crutches, but now have a "limp" and my lap-band surgeon said no more drugs!   I'm still not understanding what the big deal is with the ibruprofin, aleve, etc...  I need to know if you all follow this rule?   He says Tylenol only, but if you have been to the stores lately??? No Tylenol to buy.    So what is a Girl to do?

I have only had 1 workout in the past 10 days, so I feel like a loaf of wonder bread.   I'm heading to spin this morning to see if it's even remotely possible this girl can muster up a sweat!

My lapband surgeon DENIED me a fill when I desperately needed it, because I had been on a high dosage of ibruprofin for 7 days and then I admitted to being addicted to Aleve during our consult.   He said the fill would not be a good idea as my stomach was being aggravated by these meds. 

So, the scale is a BITCH!     I've lost 4.25 lbs in 5 weeks.    I'm still eating the same shit, but smaller portions!    Even with the workouts being ultra intense, I'm still not loosing as fast as I could if I would just eat healthy. 

I dont know why, but I just dont like healthy food.    I'm struggling to choose the right foods and its such a cop-out.      I have a top rated medial weight loss Surgeon bought and paid for 12 months, his Nutritionist and then an awesome Personal Trainer who I love to death and wants nothing more for me than success!   I put all this in place to help me loose weight this year, my support systems are there, so why am I absent?   

Is food really that over powering that I would walk out of this after a 1 year commitment and do only half ass?   

Wake the FUCK up Michelle and get your head out of your ASS.

 

I dont want to beat up on myself too bad in this post, because I have not given up and I still want this so much.   I'm just putting it out there once again, that regardless of the surgery it still takes dedication, time, effort and the ultimate sacrifice:     DENIAL of Food!