Dealing with stress and the band for the first time was interesting.
I clearly saw the path I take when I'm stressed out. I ate like total and complete shit this week, made horrible choices. I'm not going to even list the shit I ate and attempted to eat its embarrasing.
What caused this stress? A sudden break in my routine and financial issues.
#1 You all know I'm a workout and spinning freak, a control freak and very routine. When my routine gets messed with I can become very difficult! I went to spin class on Tuesday night just like normal, but Wednesday 8/1, I was given news that my gym just closed it doors. This just drove me bat shit crazy for 3 days, because I need to exercise to continue forward with my weight loss goals. Then, of all the days, yesterday I get up at 4:30 am drive to my PT session with Mark that starts at 5:30 am ......tick tock...tick tock NO SHOW. Damn it! I'm not mad because he forgot me, that is expected to happen at some point, but the timing of him "forgetting me" was AWFUL! Ofcourse, I started to immediately think, well now he is gone...just give me a plate of biscuits and gravy and lets call this SHIT WHAT IT IS..... GAME OVER.
PANIC MODE until I got a text message which stated "i'm an idiot, tomorrow 5:30 am?"
Between these two incidents this week, I have just gone completely over the deep end with my food choices, I just cannot cope.
#2 Financial. I am not sure what else could come due for me to pay in 6 weeks lets make a list: quarterly car insurance due 8/1, medical bills from my surgery due now, annual car tags due 9/1, a medical bill for Buns shows up for $107 from a service dated July 2011...okay? $225 electric bill (its hott as balls this Summer); annual heartworm test & meds for 2 of my 4 dogs..which this routine exam resulted in the Vet telling us that Roscoe must have his teeth cleaned ASAP, and have an absess removed that was very painful for him, my neice was in town and I always spoil her and finally a trip home to visit friends and family.
Listen this bitch has a good job and makes some $$$$$, but for the love of God I'm not Rich by any means. This was just WAY WAY TOO MUCH for us to take on in a 4 week period. So stressed!
Ok, so the good news is: I'm broke, but everything is PAID. I signed up for a new gym last night and it is really nice. They have spin classes and a few of my workout friends from my prior gym have also signed up for a membership as well. So, hopefully seeing some familiar faces from time to time, will help me with this change in routine.
|I've got boot camp today with Mark at 10:30 am and then we are getting together 3X next week (mon/wed/fri)..., plus I'm going to spin class tomorrow morning and again next week. |
So i'm praying that the fat devil will show some mercy on me when I get on the scale next Friday morning. If he doesn't you all will be the first to know.